BIG CHANGES

Ok so I know it has been a long time since I have posted, and I have to admit it is mostly because I don't ever have pictures to go along with what I planned on saying . I guess I just decided not to write, but right now I have a lot to say about our lives in the last few months. First off, as most of you know I am expecting baby number 2 and.... its a BOY !! YEAH !! Due Dec 25, sounds like a busy time of year right ?!?! well that is just the half of it this year and here is why...

To give a little history, my husband has what is called Aorta Stynosis ( his aortic valve doesn't pump properly so his heart has to work extra hard to pump the blood). Because of the heart having to work so hard he gets a lot of muscle build up in the valve. Well, when kevin was 10 days old (after being home healthy with his family or so they thought) a Dr was reviewing his records and called kevins parents to let them know he had to be rushed up to Edmonton for an emergency open heart surgery. They predicted he would have to have open heart surgery every year of his life from then on... Well if you know my husband you know he is one who likes to beat the odds and his life never goes as predicted. He made it until he was 12 before he had surgery #2. Luckily they didn't have to replace the valves either time, just had to clear the muscle build up from what I understand. 

This August we had to go to Kevins 6 month checkup ( usually they are yearly, but last summer they started us on 6 months starting to get concerned ). This time around after his echo they gave us the news we have been waiting for... TIME FOR SURGERY # 3. Valve Replacement ! AH ! I can't even describe how I felt at that moment. Part was relief because I have been worried about kevin for quite some time noticing changes. He was becoming dizzy a lot and way more tired than he used to be even after doing nothing. On the other hand I was terrified that something might go wrong and he might not meet baby #2, but I know that is not the right way to think. This is a standard procedure. To be honest I am still not sure how I feel. We were told the surgery would be planned for fall if they could so kevin can be home and somewhat healed before the arrival of our little boy. Well it is nearing the end of Sept and all we know is there is a conference next week where the surgeons and specialists in Alberta get together and discuss all the patients on the list for surgery and prioritize them taking everything into account including family circumstances. 

Being pregnant and hearing all this has made my emotions run wild. It has been a huge wake up call in my life. Made me feel like I was not doing all I could to be a good mom or a good wife. I have been getting WAY deaper into my scriptures and praying more than ever. I have dedicated most my time to my family and spending all the time we can together.  All this reminded me that time is precious ! I don't have time to hold grudges or argue with people, or to go to a party every night with friends and have my daughter with a babysitter. I just have to say I am so grateful for the Lord in my life right now, I can feel the peace he is bringing me and the comfort through all this. Knowing kevin would not be working for 3 months has put a LOT of added pressure on us since kevin cannot collect EI or any sort of disability because he has had this his whole life. Thankfully we have thought of some kind of relief through it all. 

Kevin and I are moving in with my parents in Cardston. With surgery and my baby in the next couple months we are going to need all the help we can get. We have rented out our home and move tomorrow. All of this decided not even 5 days ago. That saves us from paying our mortgage. We have talked to banks about waving some payments during the duration of kevin being unable to work, and they have been very helpful and understanding. Things are really looking up. So anyone reading this all I ask is that you think of my family in your prayers, especially my husband. He is being as strong as he is, but he is nervous and so am I. Thanks to all those who have helped us with everything this far...

On a lighter note, my baby girl is growing up and for sure isn't a baby anymore. She is running around like a wild horse most the day, never slowing down. Her soother was taken away a week ago and suddenly she is talking up a storm trying to say any word she can. She was watching cat and the hat the other day and heard the song only once that goes " we are going to go go go go.. on an adventure".. so now her favorite word is go said over and over again while she dances. SO CUTE ! She has to eat by herself 100%. She does not let us try to feed her ANYTHING. When this girl hears music, she is guarenteed to be dancing. She loves to shake everyones hand at church. She doesn't like to miss anyone and if you don't move your hand up and down, she will do it for you. HAHA.

She likes to play by herself, the more kids around her, the more likely she is to go to a quiet corner and read or play with toys unless it is her cousins whom she is around frequently then you see a totally different side to her. She isn't shy, just prefers her own time. Even at home if too many people are around she will go off somewhere else. Takes after her mom I guess, I have never really been a huge crowd person. Even my husbands immediate family gets too big for me at times. There are 9 kids in his family most of which have families of their own. I am for sure not used to all that, but I love them all.

Londyn loves babies, when she even sees a picture of one she gets really excited and says baby repeatedly. She doesn't own any dolls yet, but that will soon change. I plan on getting her one so when my baby comes she can take care of hers as I take care of mine.

Look at the expressions on their faces. Two of a kind ! 

Bike rides in her carriage are one of her favourite things. Most of all she is DADDYS GIRL. She laughs at everything he does, she loves to wrestle with him and give him high fives, she likes to sit on his lap while he is working on the computer or doing anything. Those two get really wild and play all night long when he gets home from work. It has to be one my top things I look forward to every day. Noone can make her laugh like he can.

She is a HUGE JOY in our lives, no matter what is going on around us she will always put a smile on our faces. We are so excited for the next one to add to all of it ! Having a family was the best thing we could have ever done :)